The sound of RAIN

 It's funny how when someone you love leaves you, that you begin to realize the little things in life. You see and hear every little thing and you cry at and for every little thing. 

Is this called heart brokenness? I have experienced this many times and should be used to it by now but... I am after all just a woman with a heart that cares and now bleeds.

I had prayed that the Lord give me a sign that He is with me. Today, marks the 10th day of my Prayer and Fast and He finally gave me rain at 430am. Thank you Lord God - the rain brings me much comfort. 

To me, the rain is a miracle from God - how it forms in the sky as clouds. How the clouds heavy with water does not just fall on us like a blob of water but as beautiful raindrops - so gentle to water all the earth. And if you have time one day, go out to into the rain and face the sky and let the rain fall on your face. It feels like the Lord God kissing you. I have not felt snow on my face yet (one day) but I am sure it feels like God tickling your cheeks. :)

Oh, the sound of the rain. The pitter patter of it hitting the leaves of the trees and the pavements is so comforting. I recorded it this time to play when I miss the rain or I can't sleep or when I can't stop crying.

I hope one day all who leave me will come back but that would be asking cows that don't belong to me to come home? Then let us meet when we meet God and I pray that everyone I know will go to heaven where everyone belongs.

Love,

BDP

FREDDIE MERCURY @ Farrokh Bulsara (QUEEN)

FREDDIE MERCURY @ Farrokh Bulsara
Born on the 5 September 1946 and passed on the 24 November 1991.


I loved his songs especially when he was with Queen. I remember him mainly for Bohemian Rhapsody and later on found out he had many beautiful hits like the iconic We are The Champions and We Will Rock You all from Queen. Although they created many albums, their singles were the ones that made it big.

I began a journey to find out more about this Freddie Mercury after I watched his Bio Pic Film - Bohemian Rhapsody. Although many said it was not very true but it gave a rough idea what his life was about and what he may have went through. Looking at the little facts which the media and the internet keeps repeating to make it look like they knew him, but in fact not... 

Who would have known this man most intimately? Mary Austin? Tim Burton? His butler? His chef? The people who were serving him at Garden Lodge? Garden Lodge... I hope to one day catch a glimpse of it...

His memorial strangely is at du Marche 6B, Montreux 1820, Switzerland - so far away from where he lived errected by his father, Brian and Roger.
...They should have a museum created for him - a legend.


On the 1 September 2016, an English Heritage blue plaque was unveiled at Mercury's home in 22 Gladstone Avenue in Feltham, west London.


Mercury statue above the West End's Dominion Theatre.

In the end... he did become what he professed - "I don't think I can be a pop star. I want to be a legend."






Dear Mr.Mercury,
I wished I had met you. You sound like a wonderful wonderful beautiful person. I picture you to have a very 

colorful life and I pray you are having a blast in heaven now. God loves people like you the most. 

Love,
Susan Beh

Bunga Telang Medicinal Values

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I planted the seed of the Bunga Telang my mum gave me from her garden in my turtle project ☺
*please note that these are suggestions and may not work for everyone k... let me know your stories. Happy trying.

Bunga Telang:
https://www.bidadari.my/khasiat-bunga-telang/

1. The flower:Good for women especially for fertility. Regulates period cycles.
2. The leaves:Good for drying and reducing size of pimples.
3. Use Flower like shampoo: blackens and thickens hair. The peas can be eaten for this as well.
4. Flowers - drink as tea for detox and as slimming tea.
5. Reduces headaches-put leaves and flowers into a pillow case and put into pillow when sleeping at night.
6. Cleanses blood - bisul etc
7. Reduces diarhea
8. Reduces cramps
9. Gives appetite
10. Reduces ulcers in mouth
11. Reduces insomnia
12. Reduces eye irritation in eye diseases.
13. Increaces memory and intelligence
14. Reduces asthma attacks
15. Reduces cough
16. Helps bronchitis
17. Helps with ear problems-leave and flower mix with water and rub on infested ears.
18. Reduces stress

It has now been the 3rd year

She is now 17 years old... 1 more year and she would be finishing her Government education at high school level. Everything looks ok on the outside. God is always in control... and I thank God for that...and will leave it at that for the moment.

What I am amazed about is that He let me live this long.

I lost my father in 2017. :( I wish I could turn back time and spend all my time with him but I can't. I wish and pray that he is in heaven now...

MY ENCOUNTER WITH DEATH 26-JANUARY-2014(SUNDAY) - 2-FEBRUARY-2014(SUNDAY) DKA(Diabetic Coma)

MY ENCOUNTER WITH DEATH 26-JANUARY-2014(SUNDAY) - 2-FEBRUARY-2014(SUNDAY) DKA(Diabetic Coma)

3 December 2014 at 19:13

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                 My brother, his wife, my mum and sister took me to the Emergency Room on Sunday afternoon because I could not breath and had no strength to even walk any more.It took the people at the hospital 5 hours before they moved me into the ICU.This is also with the help of my sister in law and my personal endocrinologist-Dr. Nada. The MO did not even call my doctor when we asked her to until I told her off that only my Endocrinologist would know what I am going through. "I am in a lot of pain call my doctor now." whilst pointing at her in anger. She pricked my left arm and right arm unsuccessfully for just an IV drip (found out when I woke up from my unconsciousness wondering why so pain).

                 I was so in pain...constantly thirsty, hungry and wanting to pee. My whole body was in pain and weak but cannot sleep. Keep crying because so painful. Cannot hear anything that was said to me, cannot remember anything except the pain was excruciating and I was in another place.

                 I only remember these few moments:

                My mum put her head on my chest and lying there asking me whether she could call anyone to pray for me from my church or anyone? I remember saying to her I have no one, no friends. She said it's ok. My dad is at home praying for me.

                 My brother according to my mum (this I cannot remember) was talking to me and telling me to fight for my life, that he need me (stroking my head) but I could only hear him when he said, "Believe in Jesus. Ask Him for help..."When I heard "Jesus" my mind felt like as if it snapped open and I could hear and I could see. I was clear for that moment like as if I snapped out from the coma.

                 Dr.Nada came and my mum said he sayang me too and put my pillow nicely for me under my head. I don't remember this at all but all I know is when I saw him, I was so relieved.

                 I thought I was dreaming but it was so real when I saw a very bright light from the side on a few birds chirping so happily-not like the birds on earth. These birds were extremely chirpy and happy. When I finally woke up in the anesthetic room and I said ,”Now morning already?” and kept insisting that it was morning because of what I had experienced. (Later, I prayed and asked God what was it I saw…it was my encounter of heaven)

                 A nurse who was prepping suddenly out of the blue said, “Yes, you want to serve God but you must take care of yourself first…” and she looked shocked that she had said what she said. I was shocked too because she does not know me.

         After the Anesthetic team poked and prepped me for ICU, I asked the doctor whether I can eat and he said can. I was so happy that the team there laughed at me. I couldn’t eat much. Was so sleepy… and slept.

         The next day my sister in law came and she fed me food…. Yummy… There was not enough oxygen inside of me and so I was on oxygen. My urine had very high potassium.

         Day3: Nurses from the ICU fighting with the nurses from the CCU and I was a victim of their fight. I was suffering a severe stomach ache and was calling for help and none of the nurses helped. They had taken the “call-back” button from my bed and so I had no way of calling them. So I shouted. A Malay nurse tried to help me but she was scolded by her team leader and she went away upset. A Chinese nurse – Yvonne came in and she didn’t help me at all. She just said,“Don’t do like that, you will be in more pain.” I begged her to help me but she just walked away…

         I prayed and told the enemy to go away in Jesus’ Name and told them to stop robbing me of my life and joy. After that I roll to my side and the pain left me and I slept.

         Day 4 onwards… my doctor Dr Nada visits me every day – twice. Even when he was on leave, he would come in just to see me. First time in my 40 years of my life I missed the eve of Chinese New Year dinner with my mum and dad. :(

         The needle they poke me with on both my wrists and my neck felt so painful in the cold – felt like a metal teeth biting in. Made me cry because it was so painful and I can only imagine how the Lord Jesus Christ suffered? His hole on his wrist was much bigger than mine…

         Took blood until no blood came out from me… I was covered with needles until my blood pressure pump had to be taken from the leg. They couldn’t find a place to poke another needle in and so my IV was inserted into the neck instead…

         Made a lot of new friends. The nurses there thought I was a 17year old and they came to keep me company.

         During my stay in the CCU and hospital, God sang me a song

HOME MADE MICROWAVED TAU FOO

INGREDIENTS:
White Taufoo
Japanese Taufoo
1 Egg
1 Onion
1 Garlic
2 Tablespoon Olive Oil
Salt & Pepper to taste

METHOD:
Mix all the ingredients and microwave for 10minutes

Entertaining Esther

Name: Esther Chin 

Favorite Colour: Pink

Loves to eat Rice & Cheese (: