It's funny how when someone you love leaves you, that you begin to realize the little things in life. You see and hear every little thing and you cry at and for every little thing.
Is this called heart brokenness? I have experienced this many times and should be used to it by now but... I am after all just a woman with a heart that cares and now bleeds.
I had prayed that the Lord give me a sign that He is with me. Today, marks the 10th day of my Prayer and Fast and He finally gave me rain at 430am. Thank you Lord God - the rain brings me much comfort.
To me, the rain is a miracle from God - how it forms in the sky as clouds. How the clouds heavy with water does not just fall on us like a blob of water but as beautiful raindrops - so gentle to water all the earth. And if you have time one day, go out to into the rain and face the sky and let the rain fall on your face. It feels like the Lord God kissing you. I have not felt snow on my face yet (one day) but I am sure it feels like God tickling your cheeks. :)
Oh, the sound of the rain. The pitter patter of it hitting the leaves of the trees and the pavements is so comforting. I recorded it this time to play when I miss the rain or I can't sleep or when I can't stop crying.
I hope one day all who leave me will come back but that would be asking cows that don't belong to me to come home? Then let us meet when we meet God and I pray that everyone I know will go to heaven where everyone belongs.
Love,
BDP
